Tuesday, January 26, 2016

First Things First...

So, how do I put this nicely? My first trimester was... Uh, horrible. I so badly wanted to be one of those bitches who could prance around and say she didn't even feel pregnant and brag about how easy it was and how beautiful she felt. One week into finding out, this kid hit me like a damn Mack Truck. 

To help me through my struggle, I turned to none other than my best friend and your editor, Ester Kurecki. Each trimester, we thought it would be fun to let you in on our candid conversations and eavesdrop on what our phone calls sounded like. 

Enjoy this chat between a mom of three and a struggling mom-to-be

R: Welp, I am now experiencing my worst hangover ever from college going on two months straight. Unbelievable. That shit shouldn't be called morning sickness because I am nauseous 24/7.  Even when I throw up, I still don't feel any better. Were you sick with any of your kids? 

E: With Jakson, it went so smooth, I forgot I was even pregnant. The girls were a different story... The drama started when they were in utero. I found myself nauseous randomly throughout the day during my first trimester. 

R: I used to be the Queen of Kale, Quinoa, and Mashed Cauliflower, but these past weeks if you tried to make me eat a kale salad I would have punched you in the face. It's like I have reverted back to my fourth grade self - all I can seem to stomach is Alphabet Soup, Beefaroni, and Hamburger Helper. Delicious but disgusting at the same time. Is my child now going to have the IQ of someone who was only raised on the nutrients of Chef Boyardee?

E. Let's see...I ate lots of gummy worms, Slurpees, and Doritos during all my pregnancies and my kids seem okay. :) The one food I did try and eat lots of is shrimp (it's apparently brain food for your baby in utero.) 

R: More questionable symptoms: I now wake up every day at four in the morning feeling like a sweaty woman going through menopause, I get shooting pains in the same spot in my neck each night, and my left eye didn't stop twitching for a week and a half straight over Thanksgiving. Can you check with your doctor husband that a cyborg hasn't invaded my body? 

E: No cyborg confirmed. Looks like you have what they call being pregnant.  

R: Okay, okay, I'll stop complaining, but being so sick at first made it very hard for me to be excited about being pregnant. It wasn't until my first ultrasound when I heard Little One's heartbeat that it finally became worth it and felt real. Did you feel connected to the baby when you found out you were pregnant from the very beginning?

E: Not exactly. During the first few weeks of finding out I was pregnant I took one pregnancy test (sometimes two) a day, just to make sure I wasn't dreaming.  It wasn't until I heard the first heartbeat that I truly believed it was happening. 

R: I know I have a lot of learning to do ahead of me. You had said that the number one book I should read now is called "Babywise." What's it about? 

E: Oh "Babywise!" I like to call it the Baby Sleep Bible. This book gives advice and tips on how to help you as a parent, get your baby into a healthy schedule that promotes a long nights sleep. The book can be a little strict at times, so you have to pick and choose what works best for you. I will say, that with this book, my two girls started sleeping through the night at 6 weeks. Can't complain about that!

R: Lastly, will I ever arise from my zombie-like, stained sweatpants, leave me here to die status to Blake Lively effortless mom-to-be chicness? And what can I expect from my second trimester? 

E: Three kids later, I'd still call myself in a zombie-like, sweatpant wearing mommy. But, on a good note, I did find the second trimester to be less exhausting. It's like you have this sudden surge of energy and determination to get lots done before the little one arrives! 

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Trying To Conceive

I know I like to joke and keep things light in my blogs, but today I wanted to speak about a subject I had a hard time with - conceiving. 

For some people, getting pregnant is a one and done, wham, bam, thank you m'aam kind of thing. They blink and they are pregnant. For others, those others including myself, trying to conceive (Or "TTC" as they call it on all the mom message boards. I don't frequent them very often because they use tons of abbreviations. I feel like I'm deciphering the DaVinci Code. It took me months to realize that "AF" stood for "Aunt Flow." Just say period god dammit!) Where was I? Oh yes, trying to conceive is a total bitch. 

It's like I spent half of my life trying not to get pregnant, and now that I wanted to, I couldn't. Without getting into too much detail, my body was pretty jacked up because of all the blood thinners and various medications I had been on. I had been off birth control for an entire year, and guess what - NOTHING WAS HAPPENING. 

Each month was more emotionally devastating than the last. I'd log onto 'The Book' and at least four people had announced their pregnancies that day. I had begun to think that this whole motherhood thing was meant for everybody else, but not for me. I had been blessed with a lot of things, but maybe this just wasn't in my cards. I had kind of come to an acceptance with it, when one morning I was watching Good Morning America and saw a segment on this:
It was about a product called Preg Prep that was helping women who were having trouble getting pregnant, get pregnant. My ears perked up. It was now available over the counter and at your local CVS. They had the doctor who created it on as well as other women who couldn't get pregnant on with their children. So what did I do? I jumped in my car and headed to CVS. What did I have to lose? 

And so in October of 2015, I started Preg Prep. Basically, the idea behind it is kind of like the idea of cough medicine. We take a mucolytic to thin out the mucus in our lungs, which in turn thins out the mucus in our entire bodies (including our cervical mucus.) So in addition to the all-natural pre-natal supplement you take each today, in the five days leading up to ovulation you take FertilPrep which thins our your cervical mucus, making it easier on those little guys to swim on their long journey. 

Welp, cut to November of 2015. Guess what? It worked. I'm sure there were a number of factors involved as well, including my level of stress which had come down significantly, but I most certainly had Preg Prep to thank which helped increase my odds. 

Now, I know this product isn't going to work for everyone, I have many friends taking the IVF and adoption routes, but I wanted to share with you all my story and what actually ended up working for me. It's a long, tiring, and emotional road but whichever way it ends, is the way it's supposed to. 

And to all of my other fertility-challenged mama's out there, be sure to keep me posted if it works for you too ;)

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Finding Out

After being in a state of shock with no sounds uttered and our jaws dropped for at least a couple minutes, here were our first words uttered after seeing the test. 

After receiving this great news, most normal people would have visions of someday holding their precious future baby in their arms. Me, on the other hand, this had now become my only mental image:

What can I say? Welcome to my version of motherhood y'all.